A poem by me.

[Angelofwhitefire]

I don't think that this needs an expilination, but there may be some of you who don't know quite what was going on. Last summer I recived an e-mail from my first boyfriend (Justin) and was compleatly shocked by what it said. Confused I dug up his phone number and got the curage to dial it a few days later. I found that he had died, suicided. Today I was rummaging around on my computer and found this. this is for him.

What was it?


Love
What is it
Is it a high you get
Just from them being there
Or is it something else
Something deeper
In the very stich of your soul
When I say I love him
Do I really mean it
Or is it just convenient
To have him there
Was he ever love
Or did I make a mistake
In being with him

What is love
How do you know you are in it
Does it feel as if you are swimming
Or like you have been hit
I think I am incapable
Of loving
Of feeling
Of knowing what it is
Never have I loved
But is that really true
Somehow I still want you
To hold me
And say everything’s ok
That it will all just go away
To let me know
That this isn’t ok

I’m sick
And I’m not getting better
I can’t sleep
I miss you
Maybe you were love
But we will never know

Maybe we were love

But for some reason
The angels decided you had to go.

[Joey]

............

[Raiden]

..........

[Angelofwhitefire]

. . . . . . . . .
i'm scared, is that good or bad. . . . .
it's bad isn't it? well it is a year old. . . .

[Raiden]

........

[Angelofwhitefire]

that doesn't tell me anything

[Raiden]

.........

[Angelofwhitefire]

say something!

[Raiden]

.........

[Joey]

well you know my thought on suicided .....so.........

but other than that it a pretty good poem

[Raiden]

..........

[Angelofwhitefire]

you said that you would stop that
. . . . . . . . .
thing

and I have not the faintest idea on how you feel about suicide

[Raiden]

.......oh, right, I apoligize

[Joey]

if someone is stupid enuf to do it they should die......thats my thought on suicide

[Raiden]

suicide is perhaps one of the top 10 stupidest things to do

[Joey]

i know that

[Necromancer]

Life is precious.
Those who wish to end it have no life at all.
when you commit suicide you just proved that you let yourself get pushed and hurt by other people.
omtimes you need to look at yourself at other perspectives to see who you truly are.
angels can't take you themselves.
It is your decision to take what your parents gave you away. It was the decision that would end it all.
the pain can be overwhelming to some, more than to others.
simple and clean.
love....what is it?
Trying to save your self by killing yourself just hurts the ones who loved you.
Life is never that simple.

[Joey]

no matter what you do.....it will efeck others ....there in no changing that

[Angelofwhitefire]

So your calling him stupid. . . don't bother talking to me ok.